catsnaxx: neurotica


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my other vaguely themed blogs include: deadbeatdweeb / fuckyeahmoss! / queerwhatever [nsfw]

stoked on taking part in the lansing based musical collective so long. and working on writing songs of my own.

also check out my house's blog @ churchofthethreecats and keep up with events we host here on the church facebook !

there seems to be a longing that accompanies packing, regardless of circumstance. the weight of what could be and could’ve been, the letting go of possibilities. it’s a heavy load. but, hey it’s mostly clothes.

i haven’t told my parents i’m moving into jan’s house with him and ryan barnes. my mom’s expression contorts with distaste each time she’s shocked by the news that i’m even visiting. she seems to be afraid i’ll revisit that relationship. nope! my mom, who doesn’t have much of a short term memory (because she had brain surgery years ago), is certainly having a hard time grasping the concept of my being “queer,” (as opposed to gay) as well. if i mention interest in a guy, even hypothetically, she’s taken aback, “you don’t think i remember, but i swear you said you were gay?!” so, her concern that i’ll fall back into jan’s arms is a curious cognitive contradiction. forgive that digression.. and alliteration.. and..

it’s relevant because: my dad’s the one with a truck. 

speaking of my moving my too many things: clothes swap or really really free market, anyone?

— 17 hours ago
#moving  #dear dairy  #packing  #travel 

p much accurate


listening to the band i’m supposed to be in practice thru the floor

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#androgynous  #self  #gpoy  #dear dairy 

yesterday my therapist was going on about my potential. 

of course, my self-deprecation reflex argued,

"it’s your job to say that."

"it’s only my job to keep you from killing yourself!" she said, laughing with sincerity and enthusiasm. 


i love my therapist. it’s another aspect of dbt that makes treatment more effective. you have a meaningful relationship with your therapist, as equals (that’s where the skills of radical acceptance and non-judgmental stance come in on her part). 

if you have a hard time of things, i’d whole-heartedly suggest dialectical behavior therapy!

— 21 hours ago
#deary dairy  #tw suicidal thoughts  #**doesn't apply to me but i thought a tw was appropriate  #mental health  #mental illness  #dbt  #dialectical behavior therapy 
if you’re at all interested in collaborating!


if you’re at all interested in collaborating!

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#rustbelt resilience  #zine  #call for submissions  #mental health  #midwest 




Played some fun violin driven experimental tunes at the church last night. 

Will be back Friday playing with my band REAL GHOSTS xoxo

this also happened at my house last night. 


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#church of the three cats  #photos  #photos by imascientistofmusic 



@ Church of the Three Cats - Lansing, Mi

photography by Daniel Ryan Balderas

These folks played our house last night. They are kind, rad individuals and their music is absolutely worth a listen! check them out!

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#rubrics  #south carolina punk  #shows  #photos 

bendingsilverspoons @ churchofthethreecats

accompanied by imascientistofmusic

Nicole Geller closed out the show last night and did such a phenomenal job! Excited for more from her in the future :)

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#michigan music  #church of the three cats  #photos  #shows 
"Sharing is the whole point of doing creative work."
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"First let’s be clear about this.

“Unemployment” does not refer to people too lazy to work or to the losers who have failed to secure an available job.

What unemployment means is that there are no available jobs. It means that X number of people are being denied work. The unemployed are not those who refuse work, or who do not seek work, or even those with poor “job-seeking” skills. The unemployed are that percentage of the population whose right to earn a living is being denied to them. The 7 percent or so unemployment rate we have had in the years following the crisis year of the Great Recession refers to the percentage of the work-force for which no jobs exist to seek, to find or to fill.

This is why the better measure of unemployment is the ratio of job-seekers to job openings. That ratio has not sunk below 3 to 1 since the Great Recession. That means that if in a single miraculous instant, every mismatch of geography, skill-set and pay-scale were met and every job opening were filled at once, then two-thirds of our unemployed would remain unemployed. And at that point there would be no reason for any of them to send out résumés, brush up on their interview skills, or do any of that other victim-blaming make-work we expect them to do, unpaid, until such time as someone deigns to allow them to earn a living again.

I prefer that ratio as a measurement of unemployment because it proves — proves — that all of the moralizing lectures levied at the unemployed are cruel and absurd."
— 2 days ago with 8913 notes
#things that matter  #unemployment 


it’s snowing in midapril and im losing my shit

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#dear dairy 

Margy Pepper @ House of Pancakes

Grand Rapids, MI

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#margy pepper  #shows  #videos  #music  #songs  #grand rapids  #dit grand rapids 
spring at the treehouse of horror

spring at the treehouse of horror

— 3 days ago
#treehouse of horror  #grand rapids  #spring  #photos 
why? fraction at the pyramid  scheme

why? fraction at the pyramid  scheme

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#why?  #shows  #photos  #grand rapids